on the ground

all i can see in your eyes is anger,
scream silently, helpless action,
another young life is in danger,
no one shows any reaction,

lights turn off, as i walk by,
whispered rumours about him,
time when ground turns into sky,
abandoned places where i`ve been,

no smile satisfies me anymore,
finally, the kiss i`ve been waiting for,
pretend your life is just fine,
remember bowling columbine,

no colors left in my eyes,
they`re all gone as all the fights,
no wrath in the mirror,
blood on my shirt is minor.

runaway

you come back from the city. sit down, veil yourself in blanket and try not to think about what has happened. last few days are forever gone and you will never ever have a chance for remedy. days that disappeared from calendar. i`m too weak to regret, just because my head aches so much. i always have the same picture on my mind, me running away from everything. street, lights, cars and me, running as fast as i can. not thinking about the consequences, because there would be no. one last runaway.

mountain

as a white wolf i`ve been searching,
for a golden path and better feeling,
just don`t let me be alone,
lost my scars back in the woods,

climbing up on the mountain,
shiny piece of veiled future,
my death i don`t want to sustain,
keep my head up and maintain,

first day of the rest of my life,
same decisions, but different reasons,
now i know i deserve much better,
safer place with no treasons,

take away the deep-rooted pain,
i`m no more victim of friday`s rain,
invicible, so high as i feel,
what`s about to come, the fall.

unintended

when darkness illuminates light, it`s the time when i lay my head down and close my eyes. i dream of a better life than this, of better place than this, of not having this tumour in my head. it takes few days to get up and perceive things properly, but it takes few minutes to bring me down to my knees. someone who was once a friend of mine told me how i should live, the one and only appropriate way of living. at that moment i felt like a machine, like most of my dreams are being burnt. passing the time i`m being more and more irritated by this term 'appropriate life'. being different doesn`t count. but when you think about it, who are those special people. i`m sure that each one of us wants to feel like that and suppose that he is the king of his own mind, infinite lord of truth and right for hate and love. but then, am i one of those normal people? so why does my head shatters, when everyone around laughs and has a real life...

hole

why am i so afraid of the future? now, when things seem to be going well, i`m so f* scared, that everything will disappear and stain my mind with black again. but why can`t i see the white, shine of a opportunity, that i was waiting for. why can`t i rejoice over it..why am i still being pulled back by history, old memories...it`s like plague in my mind i can`t ged rid of completely. it`s present every day, every minute, on each step i do...and right now, i wish SO MUCH, that it won`t affect that opportunity that is waiting on me. i haven`t got faintest notion what to do,...we`re all alone when it comes to situations like these. alone.
i`m gonna wake up next morning and try not to...not to fall down in The Hole again...
any ideas are welcome, because i feel like i know what i want, but can`t approach it, because of me,..

beats

what`s the difference between being in a bad mood and the opposite? curious coincidence, unspoken words we haven`t expected, smile on a face of a stranger, forgotten memories from our past, those little details you may not even notice... i wish i could decode this secret to make following days at least half that extraordinary as this one was. i suppose, that i could easily get used to life like this. but, at least for that one day, i don`t regret anything...and it`s good to know that sometimes you get back, what you`ve given to others.

if you want, take a look here - some nice beats:
http://www.65daysofstatic.com/
http://www.ourmindstate.com/

remember me

on your face i see the compassion,
walking down the street without caution,
trying to forget about the past years,
i`m left alone with my fears,

loneliness is my only companion,
don`t want to feel like i did that night,
show me moves you did back in the day,
silhouette and sunlight behind you,

dancin` between hate and love,
moments can be so nice, show me how,
as much as we can, we will depart,
from shadows back to light,

another night, different fight,
it`s time to lay your pride aside,
can`t wait till you make the decision,
spines of disbelief, my opposition,

dedicated to all those who left someone.